There is a certain rhythm of progress one expects in life.  I always anticipated that marriage would bring emotional, professional and financial stability.  I believed that after the first few years of settling in, a predictable and comfortable pattern would emerge in my life.  Work, vacations, sports seasons, holidays...my life would roll along like a pleasant river.

No.  Not so much.  It seems that when I felt emotionally secure our finances were in the crapper and when we finally attained financial security all hell broke lose in  marriage.  My career remained a stabilizing force in my life.

So now I'm moving backward.  I am back to square one.  For all intents and purposes I am back to where I was when I was 25 years old...except now my boobs are less perky....and I have four ankle biters.

Due to budget cuts it is likely that next year I will be earning less than I did this year.  Much less.  A divorce and a serious illness (not mine) have decimated our savings.  The boys and I may have to move out of our home.  And emotionally...oh pulease.  Don't get me started.

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